Car talk

Tori,  Kade and I were on our way home the other night late from the new office.  And somehow we got talking about getting married and that turned into how much I love them and their dad.  It was a really great experience to try to explain to Tori how I felt about Travis and why and how that is different from the love I have for them.  I told her that the day I married her dad I thought I loved him more than I could ever love him.  But how wrong I was!  I tried to explain how he is my best friend and when he isn't near my soul can feel he is not near me.  But when he is close, I feel complete.  

I told her it is, and always will be easy to love her and the other kids completely because they came from me.  They are a part of my heart and soul so it's not like I even have to "try" to love them.  It's just like my heart beating, it just is.  I have always told my kids individually that they are my favorite, so they all think they are the favorite.  But I explained to them, picking a favorite kid would be like picking a favorite arm or something.  I couldn't have a favorite child because they are just part of myself.  

But with Travis it is something that grew and became a part of me.  I had to allow him into my heart and learn to be a part of him as well. 

Anyway, kinda cheezy I know but I love the tender mercies of our Heavenly Father that He gives me moments like that.  I love when we have times that we can't do anything else other than talk to each other, and express feelings and emotions that we may not have in any other circumstance.